Mike’s Interesting Compilation of Confusing Conundrums

New Blog Elsewhere

2005-02-06T08:58:09Z

I am hosting my own blog now! One that I've actually been writing in!

I'm going to keep this here, I might do something with it later on. Plus I've got a lot of LJ friends I wouldn't want to lose contact with.

New Blog: http://www.iroot.net/~mike/

Click the BLOG link at the top of the page!

Things that have been pissing me off :-D

2004-03-04T04:59:44Z

I want to hold sara so bad right now :( Her mom is completely mean to her, and I wanted nothing more than to hold her tonight and tell her things would be ok. No person should ever make someone else feel like that, i'm so angry! ROAR! I love you sara! xo.

Another thing that has been pissing me off is Bush recently trying to ammend the constitution to ban gay marriage. Personally, I just don't care! Let people do what they want. I would never tell anyone what they can't do with their own life. I was begining to think the American spirit of equal rights had died. However, with mayors in NY, OR, and CA beginning to realize that they are obligated to treat all people fairly, I have hope. Hope that the American spirit of equality is still alive, not in the politicians in washington, but in the minds of the everyday american citizen. As long as some people are willing to stand up for what they believe in, I retain some hope for the rest of us.

Voltaire once said, "I may not agree with what you say, but I'll defend to the death your right to say it." If you don't agree, do us a favor, jump off a cliff!

adaba

2004-02-18T01:21:41Z

today was long at work, i think i get to take my ccna test tomorrow :-D so i am studying for that now :) Tomorrow night i get to go over sara's so i'll have something to look forward to all day when i am testing/working :-D i have her picture on my desk here at home, and everytime i see her face i have to remind myself to breath, she takes the air from my lungs :-) oh well, back to studying for now! :)

freeeeezing

2004-01-17T03:41:00Z

So i'm up in Boston for the annual MIT SpamConference. 7 degrees below zero when i woke up this morning. I had to walk 3/4 of a mile to the dam building at MIT. I made a wrong turn, and had no idea where I was going. I could even feel my legs freezing solid, my nose started running and it plain sucked. The room the conference was in had no heat either! so i spent all day in gloves, jacket, and hat. Afterwards I just decided to take a dam cab back to the hotel, no way i was going to walk back. I slowly warmed up in my hotel room before having dinner and a martini, yay! So now I've just talked to Sara, and am relaxing.

It turns out an old friend from IRC, ianai, works for Akamai up here. Pretty cool, I'm talking with him on AIM. I'm also supposed to meet Eric tomorrow for breakfast, that'll be cool. I haven't seen him in like a year and a half. It feels like it's only been a few weeks. hehe :-)

Also, Sara just got a LJ, so everyone say hi to the love of my life, what a cutie she is! :)

I should probably get some sleep, I have to get up early and pack before I meet Eric for breakfast and head home.

Nighty all!

gos81 @ 2003-10-03T15:07:00

2003-10-03T19:07:05Z

so i just got back from the evil evil evil oral surgeon. they stole 4 teeth, but i asked for them back so i can wait for the tooth fairy. i only got 3, i guess they intend to collect some money from her on my account. hehehe... so sara was wonderful enough to drive me there and drive me home, she even waited with me in the office, instead of getting the breakfast she so easily deserved. i am home now, and she is going to feed my my milkshake cause i can't feel my face. hahah i tend to drewl alot.... i guess this is how frat boys feel.

Waiting for the fun vicodin should i need it later

taly ho!

clean

2003-10-02T04:33:28Z

so today was good at work. we went to the mexican place around bwi for lunch. I got an hour and a half of credit time too. woohoo! we came home tonight and cleaned the whole apartment. i mopped and vaccuumed up all over. it's so clean for the family to come visit :-) i have my guitar lesson tomorrow, and I know i didn't practice enough :( i've just been so busy. I think i might be able to wing it some, so we'll see what happens... maybe i can cram some practice in tomorrow. Prof. McCoey emailed me the other day letting me know they used the lightsaber rotoscoping exercise for a workshop back at lasalle. apparently the students LOVED it. i'm psyched :-) anyway my back hurts and all after cleaning, so it's off to bed for me. nightie ;-)

sara i love u ;-) cause i know u are reading this ;-)

sleepy day 2

2003-10-01T02:30:08Z

so tired tonight :( but i can sleep in tomorrow a few extra hours. i forgot my laptop at the conference today. so i had to share with dave, that kinda sucked that I forgot it, but it was good none the less. anyway we went to austin grill tonight, it wasn't nearly as good as we hoped. drew and i give it the thumbs down hehe :-) anyway sara's over now, so time to watch queer eye. word up people, have a good night! :)

dead tired

2003-09-30T02:12:31Z

long day at class. it was really good. I learned how to write all sorts of evil rootkits and stuff for windows. I learned how to do things I never thought would be so easy to do. It's quite an interesting system when you lift up the hood ;-) i'm so tired after getting up so early, i'm gonna try and goto bed soon, hopefully get more sleep only to do it all again tomorrow. I'm getting scared about my wisdom teeth removal on friday. :( wish me lucky ppl. xo.

yawn

2003-09-29T09:27:50Z

up at 4:50 am for a dam conference... shoot me.

fun day

2003-09-29T03:54:21Z

so i woke up today at like 11 or so. Drew was missing as I already said. Apparently a friend of his is in the hospital in NYC, so atleast he went up for a valid reason. hmmm so i lounged around for a bit this morning, then showered up and began my errands. I ran up to Guitar Center in towson, to try and get a replacement 9 gauge elixir string, but they only had an 8 and 10, so i put the 10 on my guitar. Hopefully mixing the one 10 with the other 5 that came from a 9 pack shouldn't be that big of deal. I'll see what dave says thursday. I also picked up a pack of fender 250 super bullets just in case he says i shouldn't mix like that :-) (premeptive thinking for a change) so anyway frmo there I went to ikea in white marsh. I tried to find something to put on the bare wall over my computer, but to no avail :( Instead I got a cinamon bun and a 6 pack of wine glasses. They were only 4 bucks so don't yell at me :-) Then I went to AC Moore and picked up a huge piece of foam board and some acrylic paint that was on sale and made a painting to go over my computer. I guess I am in an artsy mood. hehe Then I stopped at chilis and got chips and fries to go. For like 2 dollars they give u a HUGE bag of chips, it's prolly cheaper than buying chips in the store surprisingly enough. I got home and painted my masterpiece. It's sitting on the table drying. I love it, I'll put a picture of it below if I can figure out how. anyway I have blackhat tomorrow and I have to meet carl at his place by 6 so i gotta get some sleep, love ya world, and catch ya later ;-)

(these are both the same thing, one just used a flash)

weirdness

2003-09-28T15:02:06Z

so i went to bed at like 6am last night, I wake up around 10:50am this morning with this email in my inbox...

hey mike,

it's crazy, but I'm heading out tonight to go up to new york to see a
friend of mine. I'm not sure when I'm coming back, but I'll be in at
work by 9am on monday.

later,
Drew

He sent this at like 6:14 am. He intends to drive 4 hours to NYC, meet someone, and back again. Within 12 hours, with no sleep especially after staying up till 6 in the morning. Kid has some weirdness!!!! Hope he's ok.

A praise chorus

2003-09-28T08:05:34Z

So I dug up some Jimmy Eat World, and have dedicated the title of this wonderful entry to their fabulous song, "A Praise Chorus". I haven't listened to this CD in such a long time, and you know what??????????? I haven't written here in like forever, but apparently, based on some very scientific analysis, writing in live journals is now known as 'blogging' whatever that is. So in order to be considered socially adept, I will once again resign myself to updating this thingy.

With the random crazy intro done, let's see whats new. In late July I started going out with a sexy girl named Sara. She's really awesome, everything I could ask for in a gf, so yep we are still going out :-D Thats good news. Since I last wrote. I got a new car, it's a 2003 Silver 3 door Accord. Totally so much hotter than the Jetta, but I still love the Jetta!!! I've been to Albuquerque and San Francisco for work, going to BlackHat in Virgina this week for Monday and Tuesday. Then to Pittsburgh the week after.

Friday I get my wisdom teeth out. I'm totally not looking forward to this, it's going to suck very much. They gave me tons of pain meds in advance to take, this is not going to be good.

My mom is getting married October 25th, so this'll be interesting, god knows how this is going to go down. hehe :-D

I started guitar lessons, and they have been going well. I replaced my strings, but i got 10 gauge instead of 9, so I had to by new ones which I did today, but my first string broke, so now I have to go back and get more! ROAR!

Anyway, i slept for 5 hours this afternoon, hence why i'm still awake at 4am. I am on no caffine, i'm just fucking bouncy, let's go play blink 182. later people.

Who the heck is that behind the curtain?

2003-07-04T05:36:21Z

Yeah, well heather convinced me to write in this thing again. She can be pretty persuasive I suppose. I've moved to Baltimore, I have the most awesome apartment ever. You should come visit, I always love people to stop by and chill. However, at the moment I'm in Philly. I came back cause today is my bday, and joe, kelly, and kate are having a bbq or something. So i'm going to go hang with them today, and then drive down to longport saturday morning. Hopefully I'll run into mary and other shore people, and it'll be fun. I think we might go see the borgata (new casino that just opened up in ac). The borgata is supposed to be huge. We'll see about all this :-D I'm kinda freaked about all the expenses living alone... will I make enough to cover everything and still be able to go out and all? Life insurance? Health insurance? 401k? I don't want any part of it, i want to work get paid and have fun. Something tells me I don't have a choice.. oh well.

For all those of you who care, I wrote a song the other day (i reserve copyright, trademark, authorship, etc rights on it)
Picture it done by a band similiar to radiohead and performed in the same style as "Everything in its right place"

Please leave comments let me know what you think of it :-)

Your Dreamer
------------

i'm not your dreamer anymore
the clouds don't seem to smile down on me
icy chills welcome me to sleep
your touch makes me feel helpess and weak

i'm not your dreamer anymore
feel the void inside begin to break
purple skies mean nothing more to me
feel me empty inside you tonight

i'm not your dreamer anymore
in your eyes i've burned my will to live
seared a taste for hope upon my lips
in the night i just might find some light

i'm not your dreamer anymore
alone i stand to take that final step
eyes closed looking forwards from now on
hear the sunlight warm the path ahead

I'm not your dreamer...

I'm not your dreamer...

I'm not your dreamer anymore.

------------------------------------------

Night world!

gos81 @ 2003-01-19T19:02:00

2003-01-20T00:01:13Z

soo here i go again another random post. the eagles just lost the nfc championship, so another year with no philadelphia superbowl. shucks.... well, i went to the gym friday, hadn't gone since xmas. I figure I'll go tomorrow, and we'll get it back on track starting this monday. Amazing thing is i didn't gain any weight since xmas, in fact i lost a few pounds, so go figure that one. i figure a small break between friday and today will be a good break, as i worked really hard on friday. i am burning freebsd 5.0, so that'll be awesome to get setup.

i took an online quiz said my hidden sexual talent was oral lol haha.

well anyway let me go get some work done... tomorrow i have to do some turk independent study work on huffman coding and lz77 compression algorithms. heh oh joy. well, here we go, i'll write later

gos81 @ 2002-12-16T00:16:00

2002-12-16T05:16:36Z

CONGRATS!

You're a MARTINI!
Rich, and refined you're smooth and saucy. You're the butter on the bread, the lube on the hinge, the teflon on the pan.

gos81 @ 2002-12-14T13:40:00

2002-12-14T18:40:34Z

wow so yesterday was the xmas party for my summer job. it rocked, i drove down to md, saw a bunch of people, it was pretty cool. I can't wait to go back to work ya know? I'm done w/ finals. yesterday was my physics one, longo had a typo on it, which caused me to get a problem wrong. GRR!! I'll get an A anyway though, lol it's one problem. I still have to finish that paper for my independent study. I'll probably start on it tomorrow, and finish like Wednesday or so. I just would like to relax today, maybe see a movie, and hopefully go hit up the bards tonight or maybe plough and the stars. Well, let's go see what the day has in store. rock on kids.

gos81 @ 2002-12-09T02:40:00

2002-12-09T07:41:03Z

I went out with Kate tonight to go see Harry Potter Deux. It was a great movie, but more importantly she is a cool girl as well. ;-) Due to my slackedness of sleeping so late, we caught a 10pm show, which was over about 1am. She has a final tomorrow morning, so we headed back to school so I could drop her off and also so that she could study like a good girl :-D hehe I'd like to go out with her again, she was pretty rad. As for now, i'm cursed with being awake for probably the next 1239812 hours lol. So i'm going to go try and get some work done :-) I'll write more lata.

gos81 @ 2002-12-08T16:56:00

2002-12-08T21:57:16Z

I went to sleep last night at like 3:30am. I just fucking woke up like 2 minutes ago.. How the hell did I sleep for so long. I woke up it's dark out, I thought it was like 4:50 am. OMG this is just to fucked up. :-/ Perhaps I should of gotten more sleep Friday night. Not good.

mike

Way to tired...

2002-12-08T06:37:26Z

So last night (friday night) we went down to Atlantic City. Dan, Nadda, and I went to the Taj, where i won 10 dollars playing craps, and then lost it playing blackjack. The dealer pushed me with two separate blackjacks. Thats just nuts. We walked around the boardwalk ducking in and out of casinos. Then jokingly we said let's get a room... so we did lol. We went over to Harrahs and got a room, but much to Nadda's dismay... no jacuzi lol. So we then went around their casino a bit after drinking a bottle of champagne roomservice fetched us. Dan bought us all double shots of tequilia, CRAZY. It hit me fast and I was buzzed lol. We watched him played craps where the dealer guy sucked, he mismarked twice. He was quickly replaced. lol We then made it to bed. We woke up like 3 hours later and drove back to Philly, where i dropped them off. I came home and then slept for 30 minutes more. I got a shower, drove over to school, took the putnam, and came home. I proceeded to rest a bit. hehe... Joe and kelly dragged me out for a little while tonight, I played darts with them for a bit, nothing much. I'm home now, and I'm going to sleep for forever. I may be going to go see harry potter tomorrow, I have to see whats up... I feel nasty since I haven't been to the gym since wednesday night. So thats going to be something I HAVE to do tomorrow. Oh well, enough posting here now.... bed beckons. nighty-o.

gos81 @ 2002-12-06T19:38:00

2002-12-07T00:38:44Z

Ok, so classes are over kinda. WOO! I have a music class tuesday night, a music final thursday night, a physics final friday, and before xmas a cryptography paper to write for knapp. Thats not tooo bad. Today we had our departmental xmas party. It was pretty cool. I handed in the paperwork for my independent study with elliott and turk today. I then went to at&t and switched to a gsm phone with even more minutes. YAY so now i have tons of minutes each month, which i don't think i'll go over... lol :-D i'm on the phone with at&t now trying to get their stupid website to recognize my name so i can view my plan features there and stuff. They just said they'd call me back... I use that line too before lol. I wonder if that will happen. Oh well, time to go see what we're doing tonight.

gos81 @ 2002-12-05T13:50:00

2002-12-05T18:50:16Z

It's snowing!!! WOOOO my night class is canceled no music test for me.. that means only one more class then the final. I wonder what he's going to do. If he gives a test next Tuesday then we won't have any material for the final. If he doesn't give a test Tuesday, we we'll just have the final and no other test. This is an interesting situation. Time to sit in, and enjoy being home with nothing to do. oh yeah, i did goto the gym yesterday. I rock.

gos81 @ 2002-12-04T23:56:00

2002-12-05T04:56:52Z

I went to the gym... but then stopped for a slice of pizza on the way home cause i didn't have much of a dinner, and I got quite hungry... oh well i'll hit it up again tomorrow or do some exercises around the house :-D

gos81 @ 2002-12-04T23:47:00

2002-12-05T04:47:50Z

So like, today I'm beat. I didn't make it to the gym yesterday and i'm prolly not going to go today... I'm just toooo freaking tired. Today I spent like 4 hours trying to get my project design stuff completely finished. And guess what ? I DID!! YAY... now it's all over so I can forget about it. Tomorrow they are calling for snow, so with any luck night class will be canceled tomrrow. I want to get to the gym tomorrow since i prolly won't go tonight.. but then again it may be nasty here tomorrow, so I just may go today after all. I'm just not sure yet. I want to go more often, but dan doesn't go anymore... lazy bum... I prolly will go now that i think about it. oh well let me go laydown for an hour or so, then head out to the gym. I need to get contact stuff while i'm out. oh yeah i got my webpage up finally, err.. most of it at least. check it out people: www.iroot.net

mike!

gos81 @ 2002-11-12T22:39:00

2002-11-13T03:39:15Z

Ok, so I know I haven't written in this for a while... let's see what's new... school is almost over for the fall thank god, and I only have one semester left. I'm tottally enjoying the single life, and am up for dating :-) Word, the last entry is sooo depressing, thank god I feel nothing like that anymore lol.

I joined a gym with dan last friday, today I met with a personal trainer.... if i actually keep going i'm going to get ripped.. fuck yeah! I'm not going tommorow as i have already been there mon and tues. I'll go thrs, fri, and sat prolly. The ab exercises he gave me are hard as hell, but after 30 seconds you can feel the burn already. oh well....

I have to go get things together for project design, which is the worst class ever... so wish me luck, i'll post lata.

mike

gos81 @ 2002-09-27T02:11:00

2002-09-27T06:14:06Z

Well i dind't get to go into work today... so I decided to take my car in to get it's front blinker fixed. They ended up ordering the wrong part so I get to take it back next week. YAY! *gag* hehe...

Anyway, I went to go see Lindsay today. I don't know why, but I have been thinking about her a lot recently. I really missed her, and needed to see her. So I went up to her house, and when i walked in, I saw her laying on the couch. I called her name and she opened her arms and said come lay down. So I did, and for an instant I felt like the world was complete. I would squeeze her, and she would lay there and squeeze me. It took every ounce of spare strength to keep from kissing her. Why was I fighting so hard to stop doing something that 5 weeks ago, I'd do so often so naturally. She said she was hungry so I said I'd go get her dinner, and we went out. Some asshole rear ended her and she got in an accident. Her car is tottaly drivable, the other car was totaled. We then went to chichi's for dinner, and then to the mall. We were walking around and went into the halloween store where she saw the new guy she is seeing, and i felt utterly horrible. So I told her I was going to goto structure, which I did and came back. After we left the mall we went back to her house. The entire time was fairly uncomfortable for really odd reasons. Both of us wanted to kiss each other, yet we both new we were over. Funny how weird that is. I miss holding her, and smiling at her, and the way she smells, and it got to be too much. We ended up crying on her couch together for like an hour. She told me she had been fighting the urge to kiss me all day. How much she missed me... how awkward it all felt. I didn't expect it to feel wonderful, I knew it would be awkward, but not this much. How could I deny it to myself, but I still love her..... We're not together anymore, but then I realized I'd love her forever. We talked about what went wrong, and we realized nothing went wrong. We both tried like 5 times to make it work when it was on the verge of collapsing. Each time brough a month of happiness then sadness again. Something just wasn't there. For the first time in my life I realized that love might not be enough. I realized that no matter how much things feel right, they may never be right. We laid there and cried for a long time. Both saying that we still loved each other, but when I asked her if she was happy now with scott, she hesitated and said yes. I started crying even more, and then said, "it's the hardest thing i've ever had to do, but go be with him. he can make you smile where i only gave you tears" i nearly lost it, and then she kissed me, i know that prolly wasn't the brightest thing to do, but i kissed her back... and it felt amazing. scott is one incredibly lucky guy. she asked me, "will this ever not feel natural." (kissing me), and I told her I don't think so. Both of us have been through tooo much together. We love each other to death, yet don't make the perfect couple. How ironic? She offered me my kairos dove pin back (probably my most sentimental possession), and i told her she can return it when she no longer could feel me in her heart. She told me back, "then you'll never see it again." then she went into her jewelry box and took out the charm she gave me in april. the one she gave me telling me it was her most important memory. (thats when i gave her the dove pin). She had taken it back when we broke up. But she gave it back to me, told me to keep it till i no longer loved her. I told her, she'd never see it again either. she smiled and said, "i know". i figure we'll talk again in a few days. I know we will. We will be friends, the road to it will be long and hard. But everything between us always has been. There were no easy strides between us, but everything was something we conquered. Fate introduced us, time split us apart, but together we will learn how to be friends.

*emotionally weathered*
*physically tired*
*heart in fire*

i'm falling... catch me... please.